This work mainly tells the story of my growth, and records some impressive things in my high school.
My inspiration came from a class I took two months ago. I missed some assignments in the material class, which caused me to have nothing to do in the class. I feel guilty and annoyed for wasting time in class. But with my personality in high school, I don't know why I feel guilty. Immediately after class, I text my friends and I say I don't know why I didn't do my assignments and I feel terrible. My friends tell me that we all grow and change. At that moment, I found that I was so different from my previous self. I've really grown a lot.
When I was in high school, I was called a bad girl by my classmates' parents, and sometimes the teachers couldn't control me. I don't like following the school rules because I think it's too strict and ridiculous.I like to secretly hide in the toilet and chat and makeup with my friends. I would secretly take my mobile phone to school, and play it in the dormitory in the middle of the night. In math class, I would fall asleep in class because I don't sleep well at night and class is boring. No matter how the teacher reminded me, I couldn't wake up, because I didn't care about the teacher's warning at all. Schools and parents strictly forbid students to fall in love. Once discovered, the punishment is very severe. But when I meet someone I like, my heart is completely out of control. I would secretly date him without thinking about the consequences. I saw beautiful pictures online and get tattooed out of impulse and curiosity. I always argue with my parents even though I only have one day off a week. Because I can't control my emotions.
At that time, I never cared so much, didn't think about the consequences and the future, I just did what I liked. At that time, I thought that Chinese education system was not suitable for me. I didn't like to be restrained, and I didn't like learning without joy. I felt that my thoughts were limited, so I chose to study abroad.
Thinking about it now, it was really naive and ridiculous at the time. I regret seeing the tattoo on my arm, I am embarrassed to think about my math grades, and I am grateful to my boyfriend at the time. It is because of the high school experiences that I have the current self.
Now at night, I often think about past experiences and imagine my future life, and I can't sleep at night. There are many regrets in life, and there are many multiple-choice questions to do in life. But it is also because of my past experience that I have grown up. I learned to control my emotions and take responsibility for my actions. The process of growing up is really painful. Compared with before, the location and mood have changed a lot, from my hometown China to Singapore. I never fell asleep with my eyes closed for a minute like I did in high school, and I haven't been truly happy in a long time. But I'm grateful for everything in the past. I think past things are a book that documents the wrong problems. It has taught me a lesson. The most important thing is the present time. The rest of the road still needs to be faced alone.